But you're just a boy
You don't understand
and you don't understand, ohhhh
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you wish you were a better man
You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you're taking her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

But you're just a boy

if i were a boy - beyonce

may symptoms na ko
kaya lumayo ka na.

don't lead me on.

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from euphoric to paranoia, this is bad.

worst? or maybe better? wah. I don't know. I really dont know. OR I'm just in denial?

haha.

found myselfing really singing and smiling. ANG SILLY!

So, to make it sillier. made a list of PROs and CONs of liking him. (please bear with me, im not myself this past 3 days haha)

PROs.                               

of course, I'll be happy     

errr.. that's it.                   

don't want to entertain    

more thoughts.                 

please.                             

please.                           

SANITY. where art thou?  

 CONs

will he be happy if he found out?

ruined friendship?

awkardness. REALLY.

what if he doesn't like me too?

enough.

enough.

RESISTS.

"When the first baby laughed for the first time, the laugh broke into a thousand pieces, and they all went skipping about. And that was the beginnin of fairies." - Tinkerbell

He is not a perfect guy. He is not tall. He doesn't have a good body. He drinks (a lot). He curses. He sings bad. I didn't even think that he has a dream for himself (ok this is too exag). He is not really my type. Not even close.

BUT BUT BUT

there is something different in his messy hair and his mysterious eyes that made me pause my work and blog about him. I even found myself checking his friendster and reading our YM chat archives. How silly is that? haha.

My friends will definitely think I'M CRAZY and probably they will laugh at this. HAHA. I can see that coming.

Hmm, this shall pass. I KNOW

Can't ruin the friendship

THIS IS JUST MY 5 MIN ATTENTION SPAN :)

She used to be my bestfriend.

BUT

things changed.

We havent talk and It wont matter anymore if we talk.

Maybe next lifetime (if there is)...

Maybe if you didn't chose him over me (or whatever reason you may explain)....

Maybe.. Maybe.. We can continue our friendship which I seriously miss by the way.

Good Luck then.